My reality as a stay at home mom

I studied to be a CCA (continuing care assistant). It was an 8 month program. We care for the elderly in their homes or in retirement homes. Where ever they are… Some people don’t think they could change a large diaper (Or “pad”, is what we called it) or assist in feeding/dressing someone with Alzheimer, but it’s easy to get used to. It’s either you have it or you don’t, I think. At first it’s a bit weird, but they need the love and care. I really enjoyed that job. For 4 years. I loved spending time with the residents and trying to make them smile at least once a day. It can be a very challenging job if there’s too much to do in a short period of time. But that was okay because that’s how I got my exercise ha ha ha. And if you work with people who are on the same wavelength as you then it makes it really fun!!


Then I became pregnant with Lil Gal. That’s when my journey as a stay at home mom started! 

I worked 4 shifts while I was pregnant. I was sooooooo sick for 4 months! Man was that tough. Mentally and physically AND spiritually!    I felt so bad because I quit over the Christmas holidays. I’m sure that made some people pretty mad, but what’s a girl to do! Life Goes On… 

Being sick for so long is mentally challenging because I wanted to take care of my husband, clean the house and just LIVE and my goodness, EAT!! The worst part was thinking “was this all even worth it!?” (yes, yes it was.)
I am very blessed that my mother in law stayed at our place to help me out… she is a rare gem.

I’m sharing my experience as a stay at home mom because I want people to know that they aren’t the only ones who have bad days. Really bad days. 

With baby #1, my day consisted of:
-wake up, feed baby. Clothe baby. And fail at cleaning my house due to Laziness or no motivation, procrastination. Sad I know. This was something I struggles with so much! Some days I felt like my brain was like jello and I had no control over myself.  One thing I never fail to do was to have dinner ready for my man when he got home!

Then came baby #2! Geesh, one day it will make sense that I wanted them to be born so close together. For now, I’m still figuring it out…this time I was also very sick for almost 4 months again! But not as bad as the first time. 

 Although I know I’m very blessed and would never give them up, there’s an ongoing ringing in my ears from whining that I can’t seem to shut out. Even when my head is under the water of a hot bubble bath!  

Some days (most days🙈) I yell. I’m so quick to yell. I feel like the only way for my kid to listen to me is to yell! 
I am very blessed because my husband is one of the calmest men I know. He has so much patience. Towards me and my craziness and our children. I’m not used to such calmness. But he is an awesome influence for me. He kneels down looks her I  the eyes and makes sure she understand what she did wrong… with a calm, yet assertive voice. I feel for those who are single parents or have a spouse that isn't an encouragement. 

Ecclesiastes 10:4b 
“calmness can lay great errors to rest.”

An other thing I find challenging is, what is my purpose!? Some people think they have to go out and tell everyone about Jesus. And yes that is a good thing. We are called to do that. But God made us all for different purposes.  Maybe mine is to raise my children in the truth of God and teach them biblical morals and to love my husband for who God made him to be. To be an encouragement for him to be all that he can be. To clean my home and take care of the things I have. To be faithful in the small things. And live a simple life. 
God also gives us talents. Some people might think they aren’t good at anything. We just need to seek them out. Talents aren't always related to being a good musician or carpenter or artist...

Maybe my mission is to be a light in someone’s life. To be optimistic, loving, caring, compassionate. I don’t have much, but what I do have is love. From Jesus. 
Sometimes, life is as simple as that, give what you have. Bless people who need it. Look for opportunities to love someone. Forgive people when they have hurt you. Or just smile or give a compliment to a stranger.  Bring the new person on the block banana bread to show them they are important.  
Be a listening ear to someone in need. Pray for people.
Don’t be so hard on yourself. 

When I’m sad and depressed, it’s usually because I’m being selfish. I need this, I want that. I don't want to get out of my comfort zone.  God warns us about these things. To protect us.

Here are a few encouraging (to me) verses. That I hope will encourage you too.

John 14 vs 27 
"I am leaving you with a gift -peace of mind and heart and the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid".

James 1:19 
"my dear brothers, take note of this: everyone should be quick to listen slow to speak and slow to become angry."

Philippians 2:14 
"do everything without complaining or grudging."

Romans 8:18 
"the pain that you've been feeling can't compare to the Joy that's coming."

Matthew 6:34 
"therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow for tomorrow will be anxious to itself." 

Psalm 62:5 
"yes, my soul finds rest in God, my hope comes from him."

John 13:7 
"Jesus replied you don't understand what I'm doing now but someday you will."

I guess to sum it up, be still and know that God is for you. Be blessed today,  I know that I am 😄